Brain nerves

Dead day come when something hit my brain nerves. it's all okay I don't mind but i am minding when I said I don't mind.

I have got nothing from my self and it's damn hurting my brain cell then my whole head is hurting and my body is not working, recently I have gone lazy and tired with the problems those always come around me test me and make me mad. All problems are laughing at me cuz they have won and i lost again and it's hurting my brain cell

I don't have good thoughts to figure it out 

What's happening with my damn donkey brain 

I have been searching that why brain is controlling everything 

What ever I hear ,see, feel ,sense, taste, smell goes into my damn brain and that fucking brain makes wierd thoughts and reaction and emotions 

I have been recently getting jealous of those who have got damn good brains 

With that they are multiplying their money

Everybody said that we have got same damn brain of same weight and nerves 

But then what making us different 

That's the outlook and prospective towards everything then how to get that good prospective and outlook 

May be that's we have got from our parents in the form of genes 

Why we can't decide which kind of genes we need, which makes wealthiest on this Earth planet 

But that's happening without any noise and drama 

Our brain nerves are working perfectly 

Then why we have different profession 

Why anyone can be everything at same time 

Everybody on this planet doing great Earning money, getting married, raising potential earners 

Then what's bothering us 

The tension of not getting success or getting success lesser than rival

Why everybody wants to be on the top

I have seen when someone's is on the top

Earning best amount of revenue and fame

Then everybody starts tagging along with them stating that they are born to be at top

I don't know who is  playing with whom 

Is that fucking brain or we are playing 

When someone's starts hating them 

May be they have good reason to hate 

But hate is hate you can have reason to hate ,then all the brain nerves getting puzzled why This shit is happening with me Everybody wants to have everything that's why brain nerves are playing effenciently to get those. But I want to sit quietly to observe that what level  brain 

Stand in the future.