Life learnings

Let's start with morning when Light came into my room I felt delighted but after that I heard  Noise came from the strairs of fighting  They were looking down my mom In various ways but instead of fighting I Only knelt to down with my hands closed  But still looked me down by saying  That you are existing on this Earth to  Kneel down. But after then i thought why is  powerful always steps over the weak in every way Physically mentally, financially and by using sharp edge tongue. Why weak feels disheartened and that powerful feels encouraged and superior  After that he thinks that he can control  Everything and everyone on this planet  He also speaks by his sharpen tongue by  Using his filthy sharp mind. That day I cried alot and hadn't slept whole night and I decided unconsciously that  In near future I have to win 

Yesterday, when I reached home 🏘️ from work then I took some rest after that call from colleague come friend came. I picked up that call but after that I realised I don't wanna talk to anybody because it's feel like that everything drains out my energy in position or negative way. I feel tired after that cuz it's make me unbalanced at that moment. I really want to calm at that moment but I got frustrated.  So i decided to stay away from other people in an emotionally manner. I know there are very great and good people present on this heaven body called earth but I want to one sided observe them learn and inhibit their good qualities in myself without actually physically indulging with them. During rainy season i pleased to look at the beauty of trees, it's like they are feeling happy with rain and showing their smile to me in a pleasant manner. It is their energy which is healing and converting my bad energy to good energy  I know people are also part of Nature but I d...

Dead day come when something hit my brain nerves. it's all okay I don't mind but i am minding when I said I don't mind. I have got nothing from my self and it's damn hurting my brain cell then my whole head is hurting and my body is not working, recently I have gone lazy and tired with the problems those always come around me test me and make me mad. All problems are laughing at me cuz they have won and i lost again and it's hurting my brain cell I don't have good thoughts to figure it out  What's happening with my damn donkey brain  I have been searching that why brain is controlling everything  What ever I hear ,see, feel ,sense, taste, smell goes into my damn brain and that fucking brain makes wierd thoughts and reaction and emotions  I have been recently getting jealous of those who have got damn good brains  With that they are multiplying their money Everybody said that we have got same damn brain of same weight and nerves  But then what making us diff...